Healing Past Life Wounds to the Inner Goddess
by Atasha Fyfe
As a past life therapist I’ve noticed a trend developing in recent years: the healing of past life wounds to the feminine side of our nature.
This applies to men as well as women. Because we experience both male and female lives, men also have wounds to their yin side. However, while some men do become aware of this, it’s more usual for this kind of issue to come up for healing during a female life.
Women now have freedoms which they haven’t had for centuries. New doors are opening that were always firmly shut before. Despite this, many feel that an invisible chain is still somehow holding them back. That chain often turns out to be an experience in a former lifetime, which attacked or oppressed their female nature.
The good news is these wounds can be healed. Just unearthing those memories from the subconscious removes the power they once had over us. While it’s still unconscious, a negative memory will constantly whisper fearful messages to us. This influences our choices and decisions in ways that are difficult to trace at the time. As Professor Carl Jung said, “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate”.
This may be what the story of Rumpelstiltskin was really about. Many mythology and fairy tales are now turning out to have deeper meanings, which we’re only just beginning to rediscover. In the tale of Rumpelstiltskin, when people didn’t know his name he had power over them. But as soon as they guessed his name, he lost that power. I think this stands for the control our subconscious fears have over us until we identify them.
Facing these issues brings all kinds of positive changes in how people feel about themselves; their whole approach to life; and ultimately, the kind of future that then becomes available to them.
When a significant number of people transform themselves like this, it resonates through the mass psyche like a gong. As a result, the inner pathways that individuals have forged remain there for others to use more easily. Hopefully this will eventually heal the wounds to the divine feminine for everyone. When that happens, this kind of personal problem will then fade into history.
In the meantime however, there is still work to be done. Some common themes have emerged, which often interweave together in a past life memory. They are:
- Running away from oppression.
- Problems about speaking out.
- Gynaecological problems
- Fears about reclaiming old powers.
Hilary had insomnia for years. Nothing she tried made any difference. She was also kept awake by ‘restless legs’ – a creeping feeling in the legs that’s only relieved by constantly moving them.
Her regression took her back to the middle ages. She was running away from an arranged marriage with a man she heartily disliked. For the rest of that life she had to keep moving on, forever looking over her shoulder.
Unconscious memories often lodge in the body. While she remained unaware of it, Hilary’s legs expressed her desperation to keep running. Once she understood those fears, they lost their power over her. From that day on, her insomnia and restless legs disappeared. She said it made the most wonderful difference to her life.
(NB: Like all the names of my clients in this article, ‘Hilary’ is a pseudonym.)
Women have fled from more than just oppressive marriages. Penny recalled a life many hundreds of years ago, when she escaped from a sheltered spiritual community. It was Christian in a mystical way, run by a charismatic male guru figure. After a while, she realised how much he was draining personal power from her and the other women there.
One day she made a big decision. She changed her distinctive robes for ordinary clothes and quietly slipped away. She sensed that the man in charge knew what she was doing – he had that much psychic power.
Eventually she found a place of refuge. But she never felt completely safe. She was always aware of male energy from the first centre circling around her, watching for a chance to get her back.
After the regression, Penny said she now understood why she’d spent this life always moving on. A pattern of constantly moving from one place to another is often a sign of past life fear of pursuit. It takes courage to stop, turn and face the fear that seems to stalk us. But when we do, that fear withers away.
Problems with Speaking Out
Many women today struggle with a throat chakra that has shut down because of all the lives when they had to keep quiet. Maddie recalled a life in Victorian England. She was 18 years old, and married to a man she feared. She said she was ‘just someone who has to keep quiet all the time’.
It all came to a head when one day he put her into a carriage to send her somewhere she did not want to go. It was too difficult for her to recall what that place would have been. With her back to the wall, she finally spoke up. She ordered the carriage to head as fast as possible to her parents’ home. They received her warmly, and she felt safe again.
After a while she found another, more loving man. But in the end, her husband tracked her down – and strangled her. After the regression, Maddie said she could see where her strange fear of speaking out had come from.
This theme of women experiencing a stranglehold on their voices – sometimes literally – runs through many of the past life experiences that are now coming up for healing. While everyone’s experiences are unique, the effect is much the same for all – feeling unconfident, even fearful, about speaking out in any way. Often this issue comes up because that is the very thing they need to do to move ahead on their path.
For example, Jayne had a lifelong terror of talking in public. She had a talent for teaching, and longed to make that her career. But this fear made it difficult for her even to consider it.
In her regression, she went back to a time when she was about twelve years old. She was facing a jeering, hostile crowd that was accusing her of witchcraft. She had no idea what they were on about. When she tried to explain her innocence, that only made it worse.
This experience created a fear of crowds - especially if she had to talk to them. Once she realised where that had come from, she was able to shake it off. I believe she’s now happily following her calling to be a teacher.
The different parts of our bodies symbolise aspects of our psyche. Past life wounds to the feminine side of our nature are therefore often held in the female parts. This can manifest in a wide variety of problems, from difficult periods to breast cancer.
For example, Jenny told me that her doctor was advising her to have ‘pre-cancerous’ cells surgically cut from her uterus. She felt sure this would repeat a past life cutting in that area – and therefore not be for her highest good. We discussed the whole issue, including the possibility that if she intends it, the operation might heal what happened in the past. When she left, she was still thinking about what decision to make.
An even more graphic example came from Terri, who came to see me quite recently. She explained that she had a semi-cancerous condition in her vagina - part of which had been surgically removed. Although this malaise was dormant most of the time, the doctors told her it would always be there in the background and could flare up at any time.
Terri came for past life therapy as part of her wide search to cure this. In her regression, she went back to a barren, desolate place of mud huts. In that life, she was an African girl of about eight years old. She could hear other girls screaming, and felt afraid.
Then a scrawny old woman came after her. She bundled the child under her arm and took her, kicking and screaming, to the place of fear.
In that hut, Terri said she saw blood on the floor. One dirty cloth was used for everything. Then she remembered great pain, and her body going into deep shock.
She had undergone female genital mutilation – and died of the side effects not long afterwards. Because she never recovered from the trauma in that life, the effect on her psyche was magnified. The memory was still so strong that her body was finding ways to replicate it with the cancerous condition.
In the second part of the regression, when she communicated with a spirit guide, Terri learned that this experience had been part of her soul contract. At first, this appalled her. How could she have agreed to go through something like that? Her guide showed her how it would now bring her great inner strength and a flowering of consciousness that would otherwise have taken many more lifetimes. By the end of the session, she was feeling happy and positive about both the past and the future.
At a very deep level within the mass psyche, the cutting away of female parts is a symbolic expression of humankind’s fear of its female side. This could partly come from racial memories of much earlier times when matriarchal societies could also be brutal and unjust. Hopefully the inner work that so many are now doing will eventually help to heal these underlying issues.
Reclaiming Special Powers
I think all women have the innate gift of some form of intuitive, psychic or healing power. In the recent patriarchal age, those abilities were so persecuted they had to go underground. Most women decided it was safer to forget about all that and taught their daughters to do the same. It looks like the wheel is now turning, as many women are now starting to reclaim their natural abilities. This doesn’t happen easily however, as old fears still get in the way.
History tells us about the burning of the witches. However, this was only one way in which female powers were victimised. So-called friends and neighbours could be just as oppressive.
Gerrie recalled that in a former life as an old widow, the only way to support herself was to make herbal remedies. She’d developed them to keep her children well while they were growing up. So her potions worked, and many people came to her for them.
Despite that, others in her village hated what she was doing. They made that clear by treating her like an outcast. When she went out, they’d spit and throw things at her.
Another of my clients in a similar situation said that when she tried to sell her remedies at a fair, other women came and trampled all her precious oils into the ground.
These experiences can be deeply disheartening, creating fears that stay with us for lifetimes. Now, when those women try to do the work they love and believe in, an old fear blocks their way like a fierce guard. Understanding the fear is like finding the magic password, which gets the guard to step aside.
Positive Past Life Memories
However dark the world may be at times, there are always little patches where women have been able to walk a sunlit path, left alone by oppressive forces. Many recall past lives when they could safely use their higher abilities to help others, such as:
- The priestesses of Ancient Egypt. That civilisation lasted so long – at least 3,000 years – that it’s not surprising many of us had past lives there. In those days, women enjoyed more equal rights than they ever saw again until recent times. People who remember their Egyptian priestess lives all say they had a spiritual authority that was respected by all.
- As healers in small communities which accepted and supported them. This kind of life flowered most often in the tribal societies of North and South America. However, it could also take place in many other times and places – even tucked away in quiet corners of the medieval world.
- As visionaries and seers. These lives were mostly in the ancient world before the rise of Roman power. In those days, it was still acceptable for the Mystery Schools to initiate women for training in the use of their psychic abilities.
- In Atlantean times. The great civilisations that came before our recorded history were more advanced than anything we have seen since. This included the status of women and the kind of abilities they had. Those worlds had a highly developed knowledge of things we are only just beginning to rediscover – such as the many uses of crystals, levitation, sonics and conscious astral travel.
No past life ability is ever lost. It’s easy to re-learn old skills, because we never really forget them. These memories also remind us of the safe and happy lives when women used powers long since forbidden to them. Recalling these times shows us how that way of life was once possible – and therefore could be again.
Another hidden but positive influence are the powerful soul groups that have been incarnating here for the last hundred years.
Around the beginning of the 20th century, a warlock called George Pickingill received an important message from the inner planes. He learned that in the years to come, a large group of priestesses from Ancient Greece would incarnate in England.
Their purpose was to promote female empowerment, starting with the esoteric societies. Pickingill’s job was to change the balance of that male-dominated world. He set to work re-drafting many of the old magical rituals and practices to bring in more sexual equality.
In his time, he was greatly influential in occult circles – so the changes he set in motion went ahead. This created a strong foundation for the future of women’s empowerment in the world of mysticism and magic.
In 1951, the British Government finally repealed the Witchcraft Act. After centuries, it was no longer illegal to be a witch. A few years later, Gerald Gardner published his best-selling book Witchcraft Today. This persuaded the public that witchcraft was a force for good - a positive way of working with the natural powers of earth and the seasons. Because of these gradual developments, it is now much safer for women to reclaim their higher powers.
Other soul groups have also incarnated with this kind of clear purpose. In the 1920s, the seer Edgar Cayce said that in the second half of the twentieth century, many Atlanteans would reincarnate in America. They would come with the purpose of bringing ancient higher technology back to the world; and to fight for sexual and racial equality. Looking back on the civil rights and hippie movements, it looks like Cayce’s prophecy came true.
Groups no doubt still continue to incarnate together. They bring the power of their intent with the strength that comes from a united group. Even if they are scattered through the world, they meet on the other planes through meditation or dreams.
In the past, local groups sometimes formed because of these inner connections. They usually had to be secret - or at least highly exclusive - because the majority of people around them would not understand.
Fortunately, the worst of those times are now past. Perhaps thanks to that Atlantean technology we now have many new ways to connect with our soul groups. The internet makes it easy to find others of our tribe. Conferences, workshops and talks are another modern way to meet with like-minded people.
I feel confident that both individuals and groups are making huge progress healing old wounds to the yin side of human consciousness. Ultimately, this will restore the divine feminine archetype – the goddess – to full health and power again. When that happens, the world will be a softer, saner and happier place for everyone – whatever their gender may be.